The end of the year is here, and I’ve done some thinking about what 2015 was for me. It’s certainly been a year full of reflection and I’ve probably changed more as a person in the last year than I have for many years.
2015 was the year I grew up. Have you ever found yourself thinking about how there is no definite point in your life where you become an adult? I mean, some people may consider you as an adult when you turn 18, but are you really? Adult, maybe. Mature? Not so much. I don’t think growing up has anything to do with age in all honesty, I think it’s more about the way you think and the actions you take. I’ve always seen myself as quite a mature person. I’ve recently realised that I haven’t been. I’ve been immature in many ways, more than I’d like to admit. But for me, 2015 has been a year of growing up.
2015 was the year I sat down to deal with my mood swings. I’m generally a really nice person, but I can let my mood swings get the best of me. I don’t often show them publicly, but Jeremy has had to deal with a fair few of them. This year I decided to have a bit of a think about why I get these mood swings, what I can do to prevent them, and how I can deal with them when they happen. I now take a minute and a deep breath when they happen to analyse why I’m annoyed, whether or not it’s actually worth it, and I try to make sure that I don’t let them affect others.
2015 was the year I started focusing a lot on positive thinking. In the past, it’s always been easy for me to get stuck in negative thinking, and it brought me down in many ways and kept me from doing things I wanted to do. This year I’ve started focusing on things that make me happy and I’ve tried to see the good side of things even when it’s really hard to.
2015 was the year I decided my health is important. I’ve been a bit useless in the past when it comes to making healthy decisions. This year, I’ve eaten a lot less junk, I’ve started going to the gym, and I’ve recently cut down on my drinking. I’ve realised life is too short and too important to be reckless about health.
2015 was the year I got engaged to the love of my life. I really didn’t expect it. We’ve talked about it in the past, but had both decided that we had other priorities for now. But earlier this year, Jeremy decided it was time, and I couldn’t be happier. He proposed on the top of a mountain in Queenstown. It was magical.
2015 was the year I really started thinking about my future. I’ve always been the kind of person who doesn’t like thinking too far ahead, and I’d rather focus on now. But this year I’ve realised that it’s time to make some plans. Where are we going to live? What will I do for a job? When will we start a family? Why have I not started saving for retirement yet? All important things to think about!
2015 was the year I started liking myself more. Confidence has never been my thing. I’m a really anxious person who doesn’t believe in myself much. I’ve never been 100% happy with the way I look. This year, I focused a lot on accepting myself for who I am. The things I wasn’t happy with I’ve tried to work on, and the things that can’t really be changed I’ve chosen to try to accept. It hasn’t been easy but I’ve definitely done better than previous years.
All in all, 2015 was an amazing year and going to try my very best to make sure next year is just as amazing!