I’ve been thinking a lot lately about whether or not I do certain things just because I feel I should, or if I do them because I want to and they make me happy. All I really want is to feel happy, and I’m trying my very best to figure out what does make me feel that way.
Don’t get me wrong, I am happy. I just want to make sure that I don’t do things that take away from that happiness. I’ve been thinking about why I go to the gym lately. Do I do it because I want to be fit, or just because I want to be overall healthy? The truth is, I’ve been told by my doctor that I am healthy and I know that I’m not overweight.
I guess the problem I keep having is that I know it could be better – and of course I want to be fit. But isn’t that always the case? I don’t think we can ever be 100% happy with the way we look. And if there are those of you out there who can – good on you! I just don’t think I’m willing to work that hard to get abs, because in all honesty – I don’t need them!
I want to be OK with the fact that I need to buy clothes that are a bit looser, and that my weight will fluctuate every now and again. As long as I know that I’m not living a really unhealthy lifestyle, that shouldn’t be a problem. But yet it is. It’s quite frustrating actually. Going to the gym made me happy for a while, but lately it has just made me feel stressed because it takes up too much time and I just don’t really like it. So I’m thinking about cancelling my gym membership.
They always say that exercise will be fun if you just find the kind that you enjoy. Well, I have yet to find that kind of exercise. I’ve tried swimming, running, biking, walking. I just get bored of it. So I think it’s time for me to take a break from it for a while and try to figure out what I do enjoy. I don’t want to skip exercise altogether, because that’s just not good for you in any way, but I need to put less pressure on myself or I will fast become stressed and frustrated rather than happy.
There you go, just some casual thinking on a Tuesday evening.
Do you do things that you feel you should do, even when you feel it doesn’t make you happy?