I should be sleeping, but instead I can’t stop thinking about the fact that I want to exercise more, and no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to keep up a healthy routine. I always find myself back where I started – too lazy (or busy) to try to fit it into my lifestyle. I get upset with myself because I know that I really need to start being healthier. It’s not even about weight, it’s to feel better in general. I’m actually shocked at how little energy I have these days. I need to do something about it, but how do I find the motivation?
I should be sleeping, but here I am, worrying about the fact that my skin, hair and nails are really dry. I’ve tried so many different products and ‘home remedies’ to improve it, but I’m getting nowhere. Sometimes I think products are just there for you to spend money on, but they don’t actually work. And in reality you just have to live with what you’ve got. I really hope that isn’t the case, but I’ll need something to prove me wrong before I stop believing it.
I should be sleeping, but I’m lying here in bed, picturing what my life in Sweden will be like when I move. I’m equally excited and terrified. What will I work with? Will I be able to find a job? Am I too Kiwi to get along with Swedish people after living here for 8 years? How will I be able to be around so many smokers? Ugh… that last one is really worrying me. The air is so fresh here in New Zealand, and I kind of feel nauseous when I smell cigarettes now.
I should be sleeping, but I don’t feel tired. I know I should just lay down and close my eyes, and I’ll probably fall asleep before I know it. I really need to start doing that more. I always seem to wait until I feel really uncomfortable being awake, which is pushing it way too far. And then I wake up feeling like a zombie the morning after. I’m definitely going straight to bed after I finish this post.
I should be sleeping, but I’m thinking about the fact that I turn 30 in two years. I don’t feel too concerned about it, but at the same time I can’t believe how fast time flies by. I was looking at what day it will be when I turn 30, and I was pretty happy to find it’s a Friday. I’ll definitely try to take that day off so I can enjoy a full birthday weekend. Not even sure what I’ll do for it, if anything, but even if it’s just relaxing, I feel you deserve an extra day when you turn 30. I almost always work on my birthday otherwise.